talking =D

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eSalaam 3laikom

I just felt like writing sth, sorta talking to nobody, & then I remembered why I started this blog in the 1st place.. it's supposed to B some sort of an electronic diary
I've realized sth lately, you know how ppl say that med school took over their life & so on & I never agreed on that. Well, I think med school does not take over your life, it takes the things U like away from you.. as far as for me, the 1st couple of years went pretty much normal. In the past 2 yrs though , & I dunno how this happened, but I haven't been enjoying the things I usually do, mostly because I don't have the time to do so, & at times because I'm so exhausted.. & I did miss a lot

I'm happy that I still enjoy watching tennis.. I'm currently watching the US open
& Yes, I heard the news & I was ever shocked =[ my all time fav lil boy is retiring, a little too early I would say.. When you think abt it, u'll know this is how Roddick does things.. he's so committed, he wouldn't wanna be disrespectful to the game because he knows he can no longer give 100% physically & mentally.. Typical Roddick 

it's really hard to pick another favorite, & I don't think I can do it.. Nobody replaced Agassi to me & nobody's gonna replace Roddick
I'll just have to stick to Rafa

I've been trying to read sth, but I guess after reading more than a dozen of books this summer I just lost my appetite.. every book seems to be boring at this point, so instead of that I'm hanging out with my cousins, uncles & aunts.. I love being showered with family love, feels so good =]

& I like instagram <3 a="a" abandoned="abandoned" abt="abt" amp="amp" as="as" completely="completely" don="don" flickr="flickr" gives="gives" haven="haven" i="i" impression="impression" instant="instant" it="it" just="just" long="long" lot="lot" me="me" more="more" nbsp="nbsp" of="of" p="p" pics="pics" quality="quality" reminds="reminds" s="s" t="t" take="take" the="the" wanted.="wanted." which="which" worry="worry">
I was looking back at my old posts in the blog & I realized how much I've matured since I started this blog. I was a very young happy girl, who haven't seen a thing of the world.. I was more naive that I am nowadays, I still am naive lol but I've grown up & I don't let ppl exploit me anymore.. I'm nice, I'm good but I'm not gonna let ppl use my tenderheartedness as a weapon against me.. I will not get caught in the same trap over & over again.

I've got a few days before I'm back to Uni.. it's gonna be tough this year, but I can make it.. I'll fight like I always did & inShallah I'll end the year on top of the list =D

عيدكم مبارك

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عيدكم مبارك
كل عام و انتو بخير و عساكم من عواده

I am

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This post is gonna be so freakin' random

- I miss my blog
- I miss سلة ميوه a lot.. it's a shame I haven't even read her goodbye post =[
- I feel like talking so that's basically Y I'm posting
- I confess I suddenly find myself being cold, very cold, amazingly cold & I have no idea how I've turned to be this cold,, but there's still some warmth deep inside for those who deserve it.
- I don't eat strawberries, I don't eat berries in general! 
- I don't eat Marshmallow
- I drink milk every morning
- I once dreamed of becoming a TALL girl lol
- 7 or 8 yrs ago I was obsessed with pens lol! daddy got me all kinds of those, I still have a lot, some dried up & I never got to use 'em
- I'm finally on instagram & I find it very addictive


I Hope

after 6 days I'll be off meds inShallah =]

I hope by then I don't have to withstand the ugly side effects I've been living with in the past 7 or 8 months
No more nose bleed every morning
No more hair loss
No more bone, muscle, & joint ache
No more blurred vision


London 2012

GoSh I miss sports, the passion, the excitement, & the spirit.. I miss everything
I'm really enjoying the Olympics.. Phelps is amazing, as usual, & Lochte keeps on impressing me
Cheering 4 Serena & she's not letting me down =] she's made the final in both singles & doubles. The Bryan twins are making me happy as well
So Yeah, Sports makes me happy
I swear the smile those athletes draw on my face when they end a race or stand on the podium, when they raise that Olympic medal, when their eyes glitter with tears of joy when their national anthem is being played.. God, that smile makes me feel good & it feels so real, it's a smile that comes from the deepest chamber in my heart & god knows I don't smile like this much these days


I wanted to write sth abt 2-9-1990 but when I thought abt it I figured out I would just want to leave you guys with what Dr. Sameer wrote, I loved his post & I can relate 2 it
for those who're interested in what he wrote here's a link 


I've been reading a lot lately & that's good, reading more Arabic books than English ones which is really good, it's helping me get back my Arabic


One last thing, what happened to all the old bloggers I used to know, everyone is abandoning their blogs (like I didn't lol) I miss the old blogging world , the old bloggers, thank god some are still here
I was so pleased to read Estekana's post that other day, wallah the news that she's back it made me so happy, she's one of the very 1st bloggers I started following, that was way b4 I even started my own blog


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eSalaam 3laikom =]

Oh yeah! Summer it is! I've been on holiday 4 almost a month now, chilling & trying to relax... lots of paper work 2 do, going to uni pretty much once a week =@ I'm now trying 2 catch up with lots of postponed appointments.. & it's now the time to work on my health again =]

I think I'm doing well, I'm not satisfied as usual, I doubt I'll ever be.. bs think I'm happy with reagards to how I'm doing, I'm on the right track, doing the right thing so el7emdellah

I'm not used to taking baby steps the way I'm doing, I usually say I want & Voilà her it is =]
but it's ok really! As long as I know I'm on the right track, I'll eventually get what I want, I'm 100% certain.

At the beginning of the holiday I used to wake up so early in the morning, probably bcuz my body got used to it.. I wanna do so many things, gotta plan the holiday, use it wisely, & I need to read a bit.. I've got a pile of books waiting for me to read 'em & I've got a very long list of other books that I want to get & I promised myself I'm not getting any of those till I'm done with the ones I have or I know I'll never read 'em.. I'm such a baby lol

Surprised my bestie on her B-Day!! That was amazing =d made her day & mine el7emdella
now I've got to do all the visa work, hope everything will be done bser3a or I won't have time to travel. I'm trying 2 keep myself flexible regarding my plans 4 the holiday, although I really need to B in the states by August, it's ok if things don't work out, let's just hope we're done with our visas early enough.


I'm mixing with ppl a lil bit more than usual & it's not that bad
I'm reading Arabic books now, cuz I know if I keep on reading in English, one day I'll find out that 90% of my Arabic is gone. & that I don't want to happen.. I love Arabic
I've downloaded a lot of books on my kindle & hopefully will finish reading most of 'em by the end of the summer
& I'm baking again =] My cousins, uncles, & aunts fell heads over heels for my cherry cheese cake. I still can't believe it lol.. I've been making them one cake after another & they still want more lol 3laihom bl3afya
& Can't wait 4 the Olympics to start.. it's gonna be amazing, the thought of it brings back so many good memories..  


Sometimes I think I need a punching bag I need one so bad.. I need it to take out all the negative energy of frustration & anger.. I'm just frustrated of how ppl have become, how the world has become.. it's becoming ugly by the second =[

as usual will leave u with some random shots

I just love flowers

I can't
I don't c myself in 20 yrs

random =p

Tagged By The Addictioneer

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I was tagged to the Addictioneer a long time ago but I have't had enough time to answer it believe it or not. Sorry for being late Bro

11 Random Facts abt Hope

1- Although I'm 21 yrs old now, I still think of myself, look @ myself as a lil girl.
2- I don't mix with ppl well, not social @ all. I'm a very quiet person around ppl I dunno.
3- I'm a very jealous girl, @ times I can even be jealous from my mom & my siblings lol.
4- I don't like de3la kids.. they are evil lil creatures who always exploit my sweetheartedness.
5- I like to write letters, I love hand-written letters, I used to write to my cousin who was in the States back when I was 6 yrs old.. I loved waiting for her replies.. opening the envelop, reading the letter out load to my family =] 
6- I don't make friends easily, & I don't have many friends
7- I hate lies & liars & this is why I don't have many friends, U lie to me once, U R always a liar in my eyes & I'll doubt every word U ever say.
8- عندي قناعة ان الناس اللي ما حبيتهم و انا صغيره ما راح احبهم على كبر
9- I'm smart in so many things, but not life, I'm so stupid & naive when it comes to dealing with ppl.
11- Rule #1 in LiFe: Respect, Respect, Respect.
كل علاقه انسانيه بغض النظر عن نوعيتها صداقه اخوة زمالة لابد ان تقوم في بدايتها على شي واحد اهوا الإحترام.. اذا راح الاحترام راح كل شي

My Answers:

1. How do you see the future?
Bright, I see myslef finally staisfied with what I've achieved but still eager to achieve more. I see myself in 5 yrs but for some reason not for 10 =s

2. Do you wanna change something happened in the past? What is it? 
Maybe allowing ppl 2 hurt me, letting ppl in my life, making friends actually!

3. Your nickname, what does it mean? 
My friend PeaCe gave me the name cuz I'm all gloomy & dark, it just makes me hopeful for the best, it remindes me that the best is yet to come

4. What's the brand of your laptop? 

5. What is the mobile phone you're using? 
HTC Sensation <3

6. Do you think about immigration? 
Well, not really, not for a life time.. mayB 4 a few year, but definitely not for a life time, I love it here in Kuwait.

7. What's you hobby? 
Not much: Reading, watching sports, graphics designing & knitting

8. Do you do some exercise, sport or go to gym? do you do anything healthy?
Not really! I so want to but I just don't have the time, I'm lazy & busy,, I gotta create the time I must
I try 2 eat healthy though, no fast food or soft drinks.

9. Something you want so bad. You want to buy it soon. What is it?
I can't think of a specific thing right now

10. Are you enjoying what's happening around you?
No, I'm stressing so much

11. How can you know that a person is not racist?
I can't.. it all lies in the heart.

My Questions:

1- Last book U read is ...
2- Favorite proverb
3- What is the thing that scares you the most?
4- Why did you start blogging?
5- What's the 1st blog you started following?
7- Favorite childhood memory
8- have you ever come in 1st place in a contest? if yes, when & what contest?
9- Who's the 1 person U can't imagine living with out?
10- Your worst feature is ..
11- Closer to mum or dad?

Pretty much every1 have been tagged by now, so I tag Ra1, Reemas, Miracle Girl, & DXB girl

1. Post 11 random facts about yourself 
2. Answer the 11 questions I asked 
3. Tag 11 other bloggers and create 11 questions for them to answer 
4. Inform those that you have tagged them 
5. No tag backs