شـلتك بـيـوفي .. وطـّـن .. ♥

Happy National Day

الله يديم عليج الافراح يا كويت العز
اللهم احفظ الكويت وأهلها وارفع قدرها وبارك فى ثرواتها وزدها من رضاك ورزقك وفضلك و نعمك وأدم أفراحها

The Blogging Tag

I saw this tag @ Mariam's Blog & I loved the idea behind it, so I'm gonna do it 

1- When did you start blogging and why ?

I started blogging in the summer of 2008, I thought it would be good to have a personal blog as some sort of an electronic diary, a place that's mine, where I can say whatever I want 2 without being judged.

2- How did you choose your blog name ?  Whats the story behind it ?

My dear friend Nora gave me the nickname HOPE many years back & I though Hope's Land would be a perfect name 4 my blog.

3- Did blogging helped you in a way or other ?

Yes it did, a lot actually, helped me get over a lot of sadness, grow over my pain, be someone different at times, learned a lot from the blogsphere.

4- Where do you see your blog in the next two years ?

I dunno!! Still there hopefully

5 - Your favorite post by you ? And why ?

My favorite ones are these two:

My Super Hero

No wonder I'm A Roddick Fan :D

& I specifically chose these two cuz I still remember how it felt 2 write them, these are ones of the most emotional post I've written, & I'm so PROUD of who I've written abt in 'em

6- Who's your favorite blogger\blog ?

Estekana, I miss her post so much

حَسْبُنَا اللَّهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيلُ

I'm supposed 2 B happy now.. I'm supposed to enjoy the free time I'm finally getting.. I'm supposed to be baking them a cake ='[ But I'm NOT.. I'm NOT happy, I'm not enjoying anything & I'm not baking a thing

I'm [HELPLESS] & speechless. Never did I ever imagine ppl can do this much to you, can harm & hurt others this much.. it's like I'm living in one of those movies.. What's happening to me is, simply, unreal..

& I became EMOTIONLESS, some how I did!! I miss them, I miss their noise & it breaks my heart that they've only been gone for less than a day now but I miss them so bad.. they're a piece of me.. & I have to fake that I'm ok, I'm so close to falling apart but I can't do that, I can't cry, I just can't.. I'm the Strong one out here, the one who every1 can lean on..

There are those unfortunate ones who that at this minute I decided not 2 ever forgive. Cuz when u use [them] when u fool [them] & when u hurt [them] then you've just signed your death sentence. When it comes 2 [them] there's no such a thing as forgiveness. Even if you think it's not worth it, I don't care really.. My job in life is 2 take care of 'em & I certainly won't let you go away with it I swear 2 god I won't, I'll hurt you, I will.. I'll hurt u with what you care for the most, with the dearest 2 ur heart.. I'll hurt you.. So evil & devilish? Yes, when you mess with my beloved ones I'm not that lil cute sweetheart any more

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لما تعيش كل حياتك و عيون الناس عليك.. القريب و البعيد.. لما كل الناس تستغرب من How perfect your life is

لما تكون صداقات و آخر شي يطلعون اغلبهم صداقة مصلحه.. لما يحسدونك حتى على الضحكة

& when everything was so perfect & then suddenly & so out of the blue it's not

لما يحطون عينهم باغلى شي عندك.. يخربون حياتك.. لما يجرحونك بروحك و قلبك و نفسك

ساعتها تعرف ان الدنيا مو بخير.. ساعتها بس يحق لك تكره.. تتعلم شلون تكره و تتعلم ان في اشياء لازم ما تسامح عليها

كل اللي اقدر اقوله حسبي الله ونعم الوكيل .. و حق كل انسان غيور و حاط عينه علينا اقوله الله لا يهينك ولا يبارك لك لا بفرح ولا بصحه ولا بعيال ولا بأي شي تشتهيه نفسك.

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Note 2 some ppl: 

 بدل الحسد تعلموا شي اسمه الغبطه

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I don't need anyone 2 judge me.. I just wrote what I'm feeling now, you're not me so you don't know how it feels.

2 end this crazy post all I can say is that I'm thankful 4 having the best ppl in my life, those who'd call 2 check  on me, those who always shower me with their love.. el7emdellah, having them is a blessing

Thank you for being there 4 me

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اللهم آجرني في مصيبتي و اخلفني خيرا منها

Pics & a lot more

Hello ppl =]

seems like 2012 is gonna B all abt fighting my way through 

I've become so lazy lately, unbelievably LAZY, I just wanna sleep, sleep & sleep

Oh how I love sleep, if sleep was a man I would marry him lol .. wallah it's the only thing that I enjoy doing these days

I've been thinking lately & I realized I've stopped doin' the things I love, I haven't backed a cake since the summer, I want to but I don't have enough time & when I have the time I either sleep or waste it thinking of what cake should I bake =s

I haven't been able 2 watch proper tennis in the past year, I nearly cried when I finally got 2 watch a whole match a few days ago, the good thing is I still am the same, my heart beats fast when I see my boys, when they're defending a break point or losing their service game.. my heart still flutters when they win & I have that amazing feeling of joy that takes over once I hear "Game, Set, & Match Roddick" or Rafa or Williams

Further more, I still am a GobeSsa lol.. I still jinx my players, this thing has happened so many times.. I finally finish my exams, watch my players match in a Grand Slam Championship especially Roddick,, & they either lose in the most unexpected way or tumble, hurt themselves & are forced 2 retire.. End result = Heart break & heartache =[

haven't been studying as well as I should, I keep on postponing things, I need some1 2 slap me, scream at me.. I gotta study, I can't screw up, I can't afford another set back,, Not Acceptable 

I miss the times I used 2 write posts with lots of PiCs, so this one will have a lot of Pics =]

I was cleaning my room that other day & I found this lol

this goes back to the summer holiday, not sure last summer or the one b4 that

just look at this, it's hilarious

aham shay "Buy Samboosa" lol 7g RamaDan

Got my 2012 agenda 15 days late

I'm keeping some ppl away cuz I don't want 2 get hurt

I don't wanna write my diaries & complain & nag,, I don't want 2 write abt you in my diaries

Yes, I made this =] 

 One of my fav hobbies is grocery shopping, it's such a joy

my old school

didn't step a foot there since I graduated

I'm sure it looks very different from the inside now, I know it's different from the outside

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دعاء 

اللهم احرسني و عائلتي ﻣن عين نظرت إلينا ولم تذكرك فأنت خير الحافظين ♥

2012.. Week 1

2012.. Week 1 was Good =]

I spent new year's eve with my beloved ones, wiShed all my dear ones a Happy New Year right @ 12:00. I had the privilege to not only choose the Cake, but also cut it =p & I went to bed very very late that night. Day 1 was weird, it was a bit boring, but the rest of the week was nice.. Got my family flowers & then woke up one day to find flowers waiting 4 me =D that was AMAZING, it made my day.. 

The funny thing is that a couple of days b4 the end of the year I was wondering should I send the flowers to my grandma & aunties so they'll be the 1st thing they see in the morning & that would be super sweet =] but then when I thought abt it again I realized that I don't want them to wake up on the sound of the door bell, that wouldn't be nice, So I decided to take it to them on my own & they loved it... & then I was the one 2 B surprised by beautiful flowers in the morning =] el7emdellah 

& I'm planning a Birthday Celebration 4 my Uncle 2day =D Happy B-Day Sweetheart.. Ya 3sa 3omrek 6weel

I'm trying to B strong & stick to my resolutions, & trust me it's difficult.. very difficult

PiCs

Here are a couple of words that I read somewhere & I loved, Unfortunately I dunno who the author is =s

الذين تراهم أشد صلابة يكونون أشد حاجة إلى الاحتواء العاطفي فهم لاينالون كفايتهم من العاطفة لأن كل من حولهم يظن أنهم بخير !

و نشتاق لجنة لم نبصرها يوماً